I'm the most undecided I have ever been on the brink of an election. I find myself, who historically would claim a strong liberal bias - where liberal was defined as wanting reasonable fiscal management coupled with socially progressive policy, leaning towards the conservatives for the first time in my adult life. I can't support Trudeau's liberals for a bunch of reasons - but at the same time, I also cannot support either the greens or the NDP whose economic policies would cripple Canada for generations to come. I know that leaning such a way in my riding is basically casting my ballot to the wind as the conservative candidate stands about the same chance of winning as I do of discovering my lotto max numbers matched the draw.
It's a shame I find this leaning so unsettling and at odds with my core beliefs around a woman's right to choose. It's a shame that the person I'd most like to vote for, I can't because of who is at the helm and the track record of the last four years. It's a shame I am not more sold on the candidate I'm likely to vote for - but I suppose every one must wrestle with their choice at least once.
I have a close friend who will be voting Conservative for the first time in his life, and his description of the shift he’s seen within himself isn’t far off from yours.